i've been spending alot of time in south haven with calvin, matt, and brandon. i really like hanging out with them there, its like my getaway from the real world. if i didn't have that i dunno what i would do. i really need to get away from the people who bother me, who mainly swarm around paw paw. i would really appreciate it if people were more upfront with me. when they are around me they are a completely different person, but when they aren't talking to me face to face they work up the nerve to treat me terribly. i'm really sick of it, i just want to get the hell out of this town. i already graduated, i should just move somewhere and start a new life, clean slate. must be why i like south haven. the friends i hang out with out there don't judge me at all. i think the friends i'm really thinking about staying in contact with are elise, farah, brandon, matt, devon, and calvin. the rest i'm not too worried about.